2011, are u leaving already??
nami

yeah.. so it seems..


2012 is fast approaching. Haihhh I soon will be in the 3 series. Unfortunately, unlike BMW 3-series, it means bad news :P


Hihi even though I’m on this depressing topic, I’m not feeling all that depressed. Maybe the magic of being in the “3-series league”. It means “yeah, so what?” hehe I guess you can say being wiser. Or maybe just a simple i-don’t-give-a-damn attitude.


When I was approaching 20, and in early 20s, I was anxious. Of what would be lying ahead. Of what kind of future awaiting me. Then while living it, it totally passed me by. Before I knew it, I’m approaching the end of it. I am about to begin a new phase of life. Even though the current phase hasn’t changed much.


To sum up my life up till now, I haven’t accomplished much. I’m still a normal office worker, a salary-woman. I can provide quite well for myself and a bit for my family. I can go places for vacation (though for this purpose I am still not in the comfortable zone to go wherever and whenever I want). But because of my twisted priority and my ever-lacking discipline, I am still unable to buy myself a house. And I don’t have a good saving. And I don’t have a husband who I can claim back the money I spent on make-ups, shoes, dresses and such.. :P ahahahaha


Huh? All I’ve been writing about is MONEY?? ♬♬ It’s all about the money, money, MONEY~~ ♫♫


Haha yeah, so it seems.. my main target this coming new year is to save as much money as I can. Err.. how about finding a husband and going for vacations you ask? Tsk.. tsk... Hahaha of course these two are also listed in the target list, silly! Duhh.. LOL


As ever, my wants are never-ending, you see.. As a human being, this is NORMAL right? I want to live a comfortable life, I want to buy nice things, I want to go places, I want a nice husband and build a nice family. There are so many things that I want. But do I get to have all these? Of course not.. I am just being ambitious, that’s all. It’s not like I’m being greedy. I am truly blessed that I had been given so much. Alhamdulillah, ya Allah.. Syukur atas segala Rahmat dan nikmat yang Kau limpahkan padaku, ya Allah..


My years had been great.


But if I work harder, I can do better!!


So what do I want to achieve this incoming new year?

1. Save up money as stated in the newly re-constructed “Kira-kira 2012”

2. Get married (err like I said in previous years’ entries.. don’t u need to find the candidate first?? :P)

3. Lose weight (just for the sake of tradition LOL)

4. Vacations: bought air tickets to Tawau – will be going to Mabul island next year, insya Allah.. And also a plan to Beijing (will be depending on my friend’s availability. Not many people interested to travel to Beijing)

5. If (current_month > 9 && get_married == false) action = buy a house;

6. Hm….


Can’t think of other resolutions.. I still have about 3 weeks before the year end, so I’ll update this entry if I can think of anything else. Haha not that many things to be accomplished right? But, if you weight each resolution, hmm all points are really heavy and required great deals of effort and discipline. Yoshhh… gambaruze!!!!


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Nak gi Beijing~~~
nami

Selamat hari Rabu!!

Hari ni aku tak banyak keje. Maka, pelagi, pastilah aku menggunakan masa emas ini dengan surfing internet~ hohoho

Aku da berangan-angan nak menjejakkan kaki ke Beijing sejak aku da habis baca novel “Empress Orchid” dan sequelnya “The Last Empress” yang ditulis oleh Anchee Min. Aku sangat teruja rasa nak tengok The Forbidden City dengan mata kepala sendiri. Pastu lagi, baru-baru ni aku ada repeat tengok movie Jackie Chan, the Karate Kid, ada scene kat Forbidden City dan the Great Wall. Ahhh nak tengok, nak tengok!!!

Aku amat teringin nak tengok dua-dua tempat tu!!

Maka sejak 3 4 minggu lepas aku da start search around pasal trip ke Beijing. Dan da dapat dua orang member yang juga teruja nak g China. Yang sorang ni da confirm nak join, dia amat berminat nak tengok Terracota Army. Sorang lagi hanya boleh confirm kalau date bersesuaian.

Note: do you know, Wikipedia is co-founded by Jimmy Wales.

Err why suddenly I note something like that you asked? Hahah well, remember when Steve Jobs passed away on October 2011? Even though I’m an Apple user, I don’t even recognize the name. haihh I was (jokingly) bashed by my officemates :P

Haha sebenarnya, aku tengah baca-baca pasal Beijing ni, found out Great Wall bukan lah 1 tembok besar yang panjang. Dia ada banyak2 section.. then aku tengok maklumat pasal Jiayuguan Great Wall, aku come across Silk Road. So pastilah aku wiki untuk tau pasal Silk Road ni.

Quoted dari Wikipedia: “The Silk Road or Silk Route refers to a network of interlinking trade routes across the Afro-Eurasian landmass that connected East, South, and Western Asia with the Mediterranean and European world, as well as parts of North and East Africa. The land routes were supplemented by sea routes which extended from the Red Sea to East Africa, India, China, and Southeast Asia. China traded silk, spices, teas, and porcelain; while India traded ivory, textiles, precious stones, and pepper; and the Roman Empire exported gold, silver, fine glassware, wine, carpets, and jewels.”

Dan bla.. bla.. bla.. Malas lak nak baca fakta-fakta sejarah ni. Google lagi, aku hanya focus baca info within Beijing trip jek. Wahh memang menarik la Silk Road ni. Destinasi yang boleh pergi kalau ikut laluan ni selain Jiayuguan Great Wall ialah Terracota Warriors Muzeum, yang memang da set nak pergi. Yahoo~~ nanti ada masa lapang lagi nak search dengan lebih lanjut pasal ni. Nak kena g solat Asar then boleh cabut balik. Bestnya kalau hari-hari lapang macam ni :P

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Tegami Batchi (Letter Bee)
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Uwahh... can you believe it? Two entries in one day!! (though it's already a new day :P)

I finished watching this anime last night. Saw it's trailer on Animax, and seeing the beautifully drawn anime, I googled it straight away. And downloaded it without further due. ngeee

Letter Bee has 24 episodes. It's basically is a government's portal service. To become a Bee, one must have the ability to use Shindan (heart bullet). A Bee's task is usually challenging as the journey is usually difficult and always invited Gaichuu's attack. Gaichuu feeds on human heart, and letters contain human's fragment of hearts. The only way to defeat a Gaichuu is by firing Shindan to its weak point.

I really like this anime. The plot is original, tho many things remind me of other anime. Like how Lag Seeing (the main character) was saved by Gauche Suede (an elite Bee) and he was inspired by him and strove to become just like him. Lag grew up and became a Bee. Just like how Gon was saved by Kaito who was a Hunter, Gon grew up and strove to be a Hunter (like his dad) and looked up to Kaito as his hero.

And it reminded me a bit of Final Fantasy Unlimited. The Gaichuus are so obviously CG-ed. Bees uses their own guns to shoot their Shindan and every time they shoot, they will shout something like, "Shindan loaded, Akabari!!" Well, luckily in this anime the line is short compared to FF Unlimited. I can't remember his name, but the main character kept shouting the same few lines every time he fired his gun. Hehe I am not really into that genre of anime.

I like Lag's character, but I would have love him if he's not a crybaby. Huhu I dun understand why Hiroyuki Asada sensei would make him such a big crybaby. It sometimes cute when he got all emotional over something worth getting emotional at. But if it's not, then it became rather annoying... -_-

And Niche is simply adorable and funny. hehehe I like her the best. And Gauche is super kakkoii~~

Huhu the series ended right after Lag met Gauche. All this time Lag had been searching for him, but Gauche had lost all his memories of Lag. What happened to him? It couldn't be because of the rumor that he had his heart eaten by a Gaichuu, for if it was the case, Gauche would be dead right?? Of because he used up all his heart to fight Gaichuu and suffered from the side effect? Or he encountered another Flicker? And why was Roda transformed into a human form??

Aah... I can't wait for a sequel~~~~~
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Ookiku Furikabutte- Natsu no Taikai-hen
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Wyeee~~ just finished watching anime oofuri season 2 (Summer tournament). It was actually aired on 2010!! But I only found out this morning.. wuuu~~

Ahem.

And so I started downloading the series and watched it the whole day~~ hihi talk about himono onna @@. It happens to be my lazy day. Initially I planned to do some Raya shopping, but my sisters woke up late and I din feel like shopping anymore for it surely will be overcrowded.. sighh

Back to oofuri, in all there are 13 episodes for this season. Ahh.. I really love the boys and their games, even though I know nothing about baseball, thanks to oofuri I learnt a few things about it. Err but really, really few things ;) Of course I did some reading in the wiki to learn something about baseball, but I only read the most basic part :P Like there are 9 players in each team, there are four bases on the field, the team will score a run once they run around the bases and return to home, there are 9 innings to complete a game (this one of course I picked up from the anime), and the team with the most runs wins the game.

Ah.. suddenly I'm missing Slamdunk~~ When was the last time I read Slamdunk series? I can't even remember!! Yosh.. I'll bring the entire series the next time I go back to my hometown.

Again, back to Oofuri. This series started after the game with Tosei ended. Since they defeated the previous year's champion, Nishiura gained some attention and their opponent studied their data seriously, in order to advance in tournament.

Here comes spoiler..

The first few episodes showed their games with Sakitama High. Tajima was left with an injury after the match with Tosei. This led Momo-kan to re-arrange their positions. In this game Momo-kan was intentionally harsh to Hanai, since he always had his personal issues with Tajima, feeling inferior to the genius Tajima, he lost his own confidence and wavered.

Haha it was bitterly funny when he found his answer from Mihashi who everyday kept competing against other team members. How Mihashi practiced really hard to be the best pitcher, so as to secure him the spot of a pitcher, his spot on the mound. For Mihashi, being on the mound proved his very existence in the team. He truly believed, should Tajima try hard, he will be a better pitcher and will be positioned as regular pitcher. How dreadful the thought was for Mihashi. (Although he was the only one who thought that) Listening to Mihashi's struggle, it was clear to Hanai that whatever he felt towards Tajima, it's not a bad thing. Rivalry is a good thing, even if among the same team members. Gambare, Hanai-kun!!

Oh and it was really funny when Tajima saw Mihashi's expression after talking to Hanai. Tajima straight away confronted Hanai and accused him for bullying Mihashi. Kekeke how Mihashi stood up and denied it, and Tajima straight away like, "Eh what, so it's just a missunderstanding!" and it was settled just like that. ahahaha.. Tajima-kun really is a reliable friend (who acted more like Mihashi's older brother) .

Next, they played Sayama High.

Nishiura ended up losing to Sayama. In the first few innings, Sayama kept getting runs thanks to data gathered by their coach. They were able to predict Mihashi's pitches and kept getting runs. Mihashi however didn't lose his trust towards Abe. The team worked hard to catch up but when trying to catch the ball, Abe received a knee injury in 8th inning (I think). Tajima was then made the replacement catcher.

I was really moved when Abe so reluctant to draw from the game, for he had promised Mihashi that he will not get sick or injured for the next three years so as to catch Mihashi's pitches. For Mihashi truly believed that no one but Abe will be able to catch his pitches and to draw the best out of him. There was no word being exchanged between them, Abe only could grab Mihashi's wrist, really hard, his hand was trembling. Understanding that, Mihashi promised him he will get two more outs.

During pairing with Tajima, Mihashi learnt that all this while he'd been too depending on Abe, leaving all responsibility to Abe. For him, he trusted that Abe will lead him to every pitches and just throw without once shaking his head. During Abe's absence, he came to understand that there would be times that Abe would be wavering between two throws and would need to consult Mihashi on which one to throw.

All in all, though they lost, every one of them had grow and they were all fired up to grow even more stronger. Huu it's sad season 2 had ended, really enjoyed the series. I hope to see them soon in national!! <3
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Laugh up your life
nami
Huh at the age of 2*, (of course the exact number is a secret) i actually realized how true the quote "laughter is the best medicine" is.

I'm fasting today, and began my morning in foul mood, as i had some bickering with my sister at home.

The bickering continued in the office ( through email). And i went to shop for a bit, alone. So i din get engaged in friendly conversation all day - all my teammates are busy(except for me), no time for chat-time. Well at lunchtime i always chat with my lunch-mate(s). Or if i wasn't lunching out with anyone, i'll have my lunch at my workstation while reading manga. Of course, i will laugh quite a bit (sometimes too much)

But today, my head was feeling heavy and started to ache. I tot it's because i'm fasting. But then, when i read a funny fb status from a friend, and laughed aloud, my headache magically lifted off!! Isn't it a wonder??

So there u go, laugh, and your day will be brighter ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
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The girl with glass feet
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Wuuu T^T

I can't sleep and just barely managed to stop crying..

Just finished reading this book, written by Ali Shaw. Huhu this book is truly magical. Uhh i still can't get over the sad ending.

The story evolved around Ida who was slowly turning into glass. When she was trying to look for a cure, she met Midas and they fell in love.

The ending was so painfully abrupt that i was left hanging with tears falling heavily until the last fullstop. Until the acknowledgement page. Until i shut close the book.

I knew i will get into trouble sleeping. As i keep remembering the last scene. Even while typing this entry my tears are not stopping.

Uh definitely will get puffy eyes tomorrow~

It's already this late and i must get to the office early tomorrow. Must try to get to sleep now. G'nite.
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I'm back from Forbidden City..
nami
well, not literally ;)

I've finished reading The Last Empress by Anchee Min. this book is sequel to Empress Orchid. I read Empress Orchid a few years back, and I didn't know then that there is a sequel. By the time I know, it's either the book wasn't in store or I'm kind of short of cash to buy it. :P To cut the story short, I finally bought the book last Monday and spend my whole weekend reading it. (actually i'm in the middle of reading The Girl with Glass Feet, and it's getting to interesting part. but i had to put it down to give way to the last empress!!)

yesterday morning i went to tasik titiwangsa with my best friend bart to spend the day reading. we brought some food and drink and had a peaceful day reading to our heart content!! it was a peaceful day :) and today i also spend the day at home reading!! and surfing the net in between, and of course some smurfing ;)

in between my reading i did some research on the empress on the net. well, basically i just read the wiki. empress cixi ( or tzu hsi or orchid is said her original name) was described as an evil leader of china who had thirst for power. many rumors circulating, such as she killed her own son to retain her power, and killed the first empress and so forth.

i'd like to write a short review of the book but it's quite late already. huuu it's monday already @@

huu one day i will visit Beijing (it was called Peking during that time) to take a tour to the Forbidden City - now is palace museum and also their Great Wall!! hopefully i can go there with my future husband :P


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My Memories~~~
nami
Hallamak... Tbe2 bgn pagi terdengar2 lagu Memories nyanyian Ryu (kot), OST Winter Sonata. Mesti sbb smlm aku tigt lagu tu masa bukak buku nk study (kunun) korea. Tgk perkataan "ajik" tigt lirik lagu tu. Aahhh reminiscencr sungguh. Nak carik blk lah lagu tu. Huhu da ilang tatau kat mn dah lagu tu.

Hihi tingat lak zaman mengaji dulu, siap bli cd pirate kat skudai parade, compilation ost winter sonata n drama2 lain yg seangkatan (which is da x igt)

Hoho yosh my coffee is here, am having breakfast. Ittadakimasu~~
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Bakuman
nami
Ohayo Minna-san..

Ohoho it's noon already, but I just woke up 15 minutes ago (when I started writing) so it's still morning for me :P

Happy Maulidur Rasul~~

But that's not what I'm writing about in this entry. As promised in previous entry, I'm writing about this new manga series, Bakuman. Actually it's not new, but I just recently started to read it. When it first published online, I read the first chapter but dunno why I didn't follow it since. Maybe that time I was engrossed with other manga, anime or drama.


OK, after seeing first volume of Bakuman in store, (not sure how many volumes are already published) I decided to start reading it. As expected from Hikago's and Death Note's mangaka, Bakuman is indeed interesting. Oh I know now, the first time I read the first chapter, I stopped because it takes time reading it, and I was busy with other then-interesting series. Bakuman requires a lot of reading, because it has many dialoque, quite similar with Death Note. Explanations that are required in order to understand the story.

It's interesting to understand the world of mangakas. And the boys' determinations are really something. Hmm I guess this is the same feeling of watching "The Social Network" movie. I love Facebook very much, so I love watching a movie on how Facebook was first developed and stories behind it. Same goes with Bakuman, I love manga very much so of course this interests me as much!! (I'm downloading the anime episodes now. Oh no.. I'm so really busy!! I still got tones of One Piece anime episodes to watch, Bakuman manga to read.. hmm which one first???)

I guess I will stop write here. Bakuman manga is getting interesting, but reading is really time consuming, so maybe I'll watch the anime first. But reading manga is the best way to understand all the details. arghhhh doushiyo???

Maa... ja naa!! ;)
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Testing Blog app
nami
Hoho i'm posting this entry from Kuro-nii. Yaya, i know, y shud i do that?? Typing using this keypad is such a pain. But as mentioned in the title, i'm testing this newly installed app. Who knows one day i need to post something on the go rite ;)

Ok that's all, have a great day ahead
( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

Damn.. this app doesn't come with edit function. or maybe a full version has it? not sure.. but i dun intend to buy this app :P (had to edit this using laptop..)
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maji-ka?? no anime post in my blog???
nami
hey there..

many things has been going on in my life. hehe that's a good thing tho ;)

i'm currently taking korean classes - preparation for my Korea trip 10 months from now. ohohoho 안녕하세요!!! ngee

it's been 2 weeks and i'm still struggling to read hangul. and a lot of vocab to memorize. but it's fun. hehe. google translator has been my best buddy and i will read raw noblesse manhwa if i ever want to practice reading in korea. uhh tho i dun have that much of free time..

and i've been courting someone. hihi. but this one i still have not much to say so i'll just leave it. ;)

i have a new interest in DIY bags, so i'm nurturing this interest as a new hobby, and hopefully advance in this professionally. it started when i was browsing around looking for a laptop sleeve and i came across this blog selling handmade ones. she's selling many kinds of handmade bags and it interests me. so i browsed and came across some tutorials to start creating DIY bags and last night, i finally put it into action to "test my power" and tried to hand-sew a zippered pouch. well, it turned out just ok, and i had confirmed that i can do this. it will not be an easy path - i never dream of being a seamstress (i seriously can't remember when was the last time i touch a needle). well, i still dunno if i ever will be one, but i do hope i will, at least a part time seamstress who can produce good quality of handmade bags ;)

today, while browsing this and that, i came across this anime review blog (a new one) and this blogger has a review on honey and clover anime. god, i couldn't agree less. he (or maybe she, i dunno..) rated it 5/10. woaa that's so unjust!! i know that's his personal rating, but i dun think that's a good review. i think this genre is just not his (or her) thing. like for me, i dun really like mecha anime - like gundam, and such. but since it's not my thing, i won't watch it or dare to rate it. because i will not be able to give a good review.

sigh.. i love honey and clover so much it upsets me. i know, i'm not being reasonable. people has different views. but honey and clover is (for me and many many other) the best anime in its genre. i have to re-watch it if i want to give a full review, for the last time i watched it was a few years back.

but i can still remember many scenes in it. the most vivid scene is when mayama was piggy-backing ayumi when she was drunk, and she confessed to him, "Mayama, suki". kyaa~~~ i felt it. how mayama had been dreading this very thing - the moment ayumi will tell him how she felt about him, how he should respond to her, it happened, and the way mayama replied "Yeah" over and over, i found the moment was so beautiful yet painful.. for both of them.

hagu is not annoying.. she's awkwardly cute. she's awkward because of how she grew up, having no close friends, only her talents. people can't understand her. the way she grew when she started to make friends with the other 4, is a beautiful thing. the way she sees thing are different from others. i guess that's the way geniuses are..

all in all, honey and clover is a beautiful anime with beautiful characters and story. huh? i end up writing a short review after all.. hehe

i realized that this blog of mine has no entries for anime at all!! and i dare calling myself an average otaku??? huh.. azra, you're getting waaayyy too lazy!! (actually i had friendster's blog loooong time ago and i used to post entries about a few animes i've been crazy about)

as of now, my top anime list are: nodame cantabile, one piece, honey and clover, fullmetal alchemist, oofuri (ookiku furikabutte), k-on!, k-on!! azumanga daioh, hale nochi guu,fruits basket, hikago (hikaru no go), nana, kaicho wa maid sama and the list goes on..

as for manga, the top list are: bleach, one piece, slamdunk, dragonball, yuyu hakusho, beelzebub, oresama teacher, crayon shin chan, and many others.

hm.. i guess that's all for today. i will try my best to post entry to review about more stuff - novels i read, songs i like, anime, manga, j-dorama, k-stuff, and whatsoever. this is for the sake to improve my writing skill ;)

okey, ja mata nee ^^
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it's yet another new year.. 2011, welcome!!
nami
hey there, salam..

today is already third of January. and yet here i am, wayyy left out in posting an entry for the occasion. is it because i'm lacking the enthusiasm for celebrating the new year?? nawww... it's because i'm too preoccupied with my new hunny~~ ngeheee his name is kuro-nii. huhu three weeks ago i finally lost kuro-tan.. huhu due to my clumsiness, i lost him.. and only 3 days ago i bought a new phone. hehe i've been in love with this phone ever since kuro-tan showed symptom that's he's going to fail me.. and i named him kuro-nii (black no 2). hehe this new black is way sleekier than kuro-tan. hehe the down side is i can't set my fav song as its ringtone. maybe there's a way in doing that. i already searched on the net and found one, but haven't try it yet.

haha enough about the phone-talk. this entry supposed to be about new year right? i ought to be talking about resolutions and such..

well, last working day last year, hehe i meant to say on 30th December 2010, 3 days ago, i was listening to the radio, IKIM channel. hehe even I listen to ikim at times, mostly on the way back from work because usually i go back around maghrib time. and i was saying, there is a slot for a tazkirah, a topic on new year celebration of course. this ustaz was saying, before we go off to listing our new year resolution, we first must do a postmortem of the year. go through our resolutions of the current year, defining whether we had achieved our goal(s) of the year, and if we failed, to find out what are the reasons for the failure(s). he said we should find out the reasons, but not excuses. excuses won't bring us anywhere. and after finding out the reasons, to think of solutions to work it out. and to execute. in order to work this out, we must stop BANGAU-ing.

what the heck is that, you ask?

oh see, there is this old folk song we Malays sing in our childhood, it goes like this:

bangau oh bangau, kenapa engkau kurus?
macam mana aku tak kurus, ikan tidak timbul.
ikan oh ikan, kenapa engkau tak timbul?
macam mana aku nak timbul, rumput panjang sangat.
rumput oh rumput, kenapa engkau panjang sangat?
macam mana aku tak panjang, lembu tak makan aku.

on and on it goes until,

ular oh ular, kenapa kau nak makan katak?
macam mana aku tak makan, memang makanan aku.

the song goes on and on since each character in the song gave excuses for whatever situation they were in. until the snake put a stop to it - it says it's hunting for the frog because it (the frog) is what it(the snake) eats..

the point is, stop making excuses every time you're stuck in some deep sh*t. try to move forward. if a great wall is stopping you, move around it, somehow look for a way to pass it through. seek help, whatever, just don't sit there like a lump of meat, defeated, composing heaps of excuses should anyone would ask. you could always turn around, go back to your starting point, perhaps think about things you've done wrong, ways to get around it, and start over. no one is rushing you. it's not just about the destination, but the journey itself is darn important. it is life.

talk about rushing things out, two weeks ago i had an emotional breakdown.

if you read my new year entry last year, you would probably remember how i was in blues thinking that i'm getting another year older and yet i am still alone. well, it's not happening that way this year. because i am no longer alone? nawww... wrong answer.

i met a guy, and he's wayyyy younger than me. and he expressed his interest in me. i was puzzled. dear God, is this the one you sent to me? there was no way to find out, except trying to get to know him. knowing that he's sooo much younger than me. then i accepted, OK, there is no way in hell He sent this boy for me. and i softly pushed him away.

then, a friend introduced me to her hubby's best friend. he is a nice guy. we got along quite well. then he expressed his love for me with 3 roses. in 1 week. dear God, i wasn't flattered, i was getting scared!! this guy is serious and i was still struggling to get to know him. i feel nothing for him. then one day (week 2) it struck me. i don't dislike this man, but i can't like him. all i've been doing is look at his good points and make myself believe he is a good man. but do i like him? no.. it gave me an emotional breakdown. i cried myself out, thinking, oh God, is this really for me? do i have to accept anyone who comes into my life who i can't reject? just because i am getting old and perhaps i won't be getting any other chances?? it was such a great blow for me, it was so unfair. the thought "I have to" really made me damn depressed. is it so impossible for me to meet someone i like and likes me back? really? because i'm old??

then i went to see my best friend bart. and as always, her words put me at ease. why should i force myself? why am i doing things i don't like? don't i believe in Him? i have right to make my own choices. so what if i choose wrong? i'm a human after all, of course i make mistakes. why should i be afraid of making mistakes? have faith in Him. maybe He has other agenda for me. i don't feel IT with him, so maybe he's not the one. why should i feel rushed? why should i feel like my age is chasing me? age is not stoppable. it will come as it pleases. just let it be. i will try to go with my own pace. not feeling rushed. enjoy the journey, enjoy the life.

i said this before, in my previous entry, there are many blank spaces in my life. but my journey is still long (unless He said otherwise). who knows what i will find along the way? i look forward to continuing my journey this year. welcome, 2011!! :)
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