I want to love my job.. i dun want to use this H word. tho that's exactly what i'm feeling at the moment, i dun want to express it. i dun want to express how much i H my job. because i want to try to LOVE my job. i want to make myself to LOVE my job. really, i'm really blur about my new scope of job right now. but i'm working on it. working hard to learn and LOVE. because i dun have any other choice. this time around i dun have the option of 'looking somewhere else for a better job'. huhu because i've been BONDED. huhu what to do.. please LOVE ur job!!

I want to love other things as well. so many things need to be loved by me. for instant, myself. and my life. well i love myself, my life. but at certain point of times there is H going on inside my head. so need to transform it into love. oh what a busy person i am.. so much loving to do. hait gambare masu~~

that is all my whining of the day.. may tomorrow will be better. Amiinnn