Aku YAKIN!!
I've been in slump since last week. I had this one issue at work that i can't seem to solve. Haihh it's so damn frustrating. Worked DAYS on still couldn't solve it.
And that thing chose to surface now of all time.. Haihh kusut!!
Fighting!!
And that thing chose to surface now of all time.. Haihh kusut!!
Fighting!!
Finished reading this during my holiday. An interesting read!! I never been interested to read a book about science but unexpectedly this one is.
It tells a story about a doctor named Victor Hoppe who had passion in researching about creating lives. He researched about embryo and finally succeeded in cloning human - himself. He used his own cell, fused it in a human egg (i think) and installed it in a woman's womb. She produced 3 twin boys, the exact copies of the doctor.
He raised the 3 children as specimens, running tests on them, never treating them as his children at all. They were born with telomere chain half shorter than normal. Telomeres are used during cell division and soon, after all are used up, the rapid aging will begin. When the doctor concluded that the twins were a failure, he just accepted the fact that they're dying and abandoned them to die in their room. How monstrous!!
It didn't occurred to me that the doctor was mad in the beginning of the story. The author did a brilliant job to tell the story from the doctor's point of view, so i get to understand his way of thinking. The more he's involved, the more obsessed he got, and the more mad he became.
He grew up reading bible while he was still a toddler, yes, he can read when he was only 3. He grew up without his parents in a psychiatric institution run by nuns, and from what he get from the reading, jesus is good, and god is evil. Because jesus do good, and god punish. He suffered a mild autism - asperger's syndrome since birth, so his world only consist of black and white.
So the doctor worked hard to create life, to challenge god. For him, nothing is impossible. Impossible is merely very difficult.
The doctor got the idea that he was "like" jesus. That he do good, but people misunderstood him, accuse him of lies, mock him, and god punish him.
When his madness was discovered, the doctor hanged himself on a cross in a church, just like jesus was hanged, in front of all the villagers who were at a mass. And unknown to anyone, he had planted a new, upgraded clone of himself in one of the villagers' womb. Because he believed, that is a way to resurrect the dead.
Truly, this book is such a fascinating read!
Haihh tiba-tiba rasa blues lak. Adakah kesan dari menonton drama Korea "Scent of a woman" tadi? Huhu sedeh la pulak bila teringat.
Huhu someone from my past came knocking my door once again. But i don't feel like opening up. Why?? I know He got plans for me up His sleeve. I ask Him day and night to let me meet my other half. And now here he comes after all these years. But i dun feel like entertaining this. For i still remember why i turned around. Should i try to face it? Haihh i really dun want to waste my time over this. But how do i know this is not something He arrange for me?
Huhu someone from my past came knocking my door once again. But i don't feel like opening up. Why?? I know He got plans for me up His sleeve. I ask Him day and night to let me meet my other half. And now here he comes after all these years. But i dun feel like entertaining this. For i still remember why i turned around. Should i try to face it? Haihh i really dun want to waste my time over this. But how do i know this is not something He arrange for me?
yeah.. so it seems..
2012 is fast approaching. Haihhh I soon will be in the 3 series. Unfortunately, unlike BMW 3-series, it means bad news :P
Hihi even though I’m on this depressing topic, I’m not feeling all that depressed. Maybe the magic of being in the “3-series league”. It means “yeah, so what?” hehe I guess you can say being wiser. Or maybe just a simple i-don’t-give-a-damn attitude.
When I was approaching 20, and in early 20s, I was anxious. Of what would be lying ahead. Of what kind of future awaiting me. Then while living it, it totally passed me by. Before I knew it, I’m approaching the end of it. I am about to begin a new phase of life. Even though the current phase hasn’t changed much.
To sum up my life up till now, I haven’t accomplished much. I’m still a normal office worker, a salary-woman. I can provide quite well for myself and a bit for my family. I can go places for vacation (though for this purpose I am still not in the comfortable zone to go wherever and whenever I want). But because of my twisted priority and my ever-lacking discipline, I am still unable to buy myself a house. And I don’t have a good saving. And I don’t have a husband who I can claim back the money I spent on make-ups, shoes, dresses and such.. :P ahahahaha
Huh? All I’ve been writing about is MONEY?? ♬♬ It’s all about the money, money, MONEY~~ ♫♫
Haha yeah, so it seems.. my main target this coming new year is to save as much money as I can. Err.. how about finding a husband and going for vacations you ask? Tsk.. tsk... Hahaha of course these two are also listed in the target list, silly! Duhh.. LOL
As ever, my wants are never-ending, you see.. As a human being, this is NORMAL right? I want to live a comfortable life, I want to buy nice things, I want to go places, I want a nice husband and build a nice family. There are so many things that I want. But do I get to have all these? Of course not.. I am just being ambitious, that’s all. It’s not like I’m being greedy. I am truly blessed that I had been given so much. Alhamdulillah, ya Allah.. Syukur atas segala Rahmat dan nikmat yang Kau limpahkan padaku, ya Allah..
My years had been great.
But if I work harder, I can do better!!
So what do I want to achieve this incoming new year?
1. Save up money as stated in the newly re-constructed “Kira-kira 2012”
2. Get married (err like I said in previous years’ entries.. don’t u need to find the candidate first?? :P)
3. Lose weight (just for the sake of tradition LOL)
4. Vacations: bought air tickets to Tawau – will be going to Mabul island next year, insya Allah.. And also a plan to Beijing (will be depending on my friend’s availability. Not many people interested to travel to Beijing)
5. If (current_month > 9 && get_married == false) action = buy a house;
6. Hm….
Can’t think of other resolutions.. I still have about 3 weeks before the year end, so I’ll update this entry if I can think of anything else. Haha not that many things to be accomplished right? But, if you weight each resolution, hmm all points are really heavy and required great deals of effort and discipline. Yoshhh… gambaruze!!!!
Selamat hari Rabu!!
Hari ni aku tak banyak keje. Maka, pelagi, pastilah aku menggunakan masa emas ini dengan surfing internet~ hohoho
Aku da berangan-angan nak menjejakkan kaki ke Beijing sejak aku da habis baca novel “Empress Orchid” dan sequelnya “The Last Empress” yang ditulis oleh Anchee Min. Aku sangat teruja rasa nak tengok The Forbidden City dengan mata kepala sendiri. Pastu lagi, baru-baru ni aku ada repeat tengok movie Jackie Chan, the Karate Kid, ada scene kat Forbidden City dan the Great Wall. Ahhh nak tengok, nak tengok!!!
Aku amat teringin nak tengok dua-dua tempat tu!!
Maka sejak 3 4 minggu lepas aku da start search around pasal trip ke Beijing. Dan da dapat dua orang member yang juga teruja nak g China. Yang sorang ni da confirm nak join, dia amat berminat nak tengok Terracota Army. Sorang lagi hanya boleh confirm kalau date bersesuaian.
Note: do you know, Wikipedia is co-founded by Jimmy Wales.
Err why suddenly I note something like that you asked? Hahah well, remember when Steve Jobs passed away on October 2011? Even though I’m an Apple user, I don’t even recognize the name. haihh I was (jokingly) bashed by my officemates :P
Haha sebenarnya, aku tengah baca-baca pasal Beijing ni, found out Great Wall bukan lah 1 tembok besar yang panjang. Dia ada banyak2 section.. then aku tengok maklumat pasal Jiayuguan Great Wall, aku come across Silk Road. So pastilah aku wiki untuk tau pasal Silk Road ni.
Quoted dari Wikipedia: “The Silk Road or Silk Route refers to a network of interlinking trade routes across the Afro-Eurasian landmass that connected East, South, and Western Asia with the Mediterranean and European world, as well as parts of North and East Africa. The land routes were supplemented by sea routes which extended from the Red Sea to East Africa, India, China, and Southeast Asia. China traded silk, spices, teas, and porcelain; while India traded ivory, textiles, precious stones, and pepper; and the Roman Empire exported gold, silver, fine glassware, wine, carpets, and jewels.”
Dan bla.. bla.. bla.. Malas lak nak baca fakta-fakta sejarah ni. Google lagi, aku hanya focus baca info within Beijing trip jek. Wahh memang menarik la Silk Road ni. Destinasi yang boleh pergi kalau ikut laluan ni selain Jiayuguan Great Wall ialah Terracota Warriors Muzeum, yang memang da set nak pergi. Yahoo~~ nanti ada masa lapang lagi nak search dengan lebih lanjut pasal ni. Nak kena g solat Asar then boleh cabut balik. Bestnya kalau hari-hari lapang macam ni :P
I finished watching this anime last night. Saw it's trailer on Animax, and seeing the beautifully drawn anime, I googled it straight away. And downloaded it without further due. ngeee
Letter Bee has 24 episodes. It's basically is a government's portal service. To become a Bee, one must have the ability to use Shindan (heart bullet). A Bee's task is usually challenging as the journey is usually difficult and always invited Gaichuu's attack. Gaichuu feeds on human heart, and letters contain human's fragment of hearts. The only way to defeat a Gaichuu is by firing Shindan to its weak point.
I really like this anime. The plot is original, tho many things remind me of other anime. Like how Lag Seeing (the main character) was saved by Gauche Suede (an elite Bee) and he was inspired by him and strove to become just like him. Lag grew up and became a Bee. Just like how Gon was saved by Kaito who was a Hunter, Gon grew up and strove to be a Hunter (like his dad) and looked up to Kaito as his hero.
And it reminded me a bit of Final Fantasy Unlimited. The Gaichuus are so obviously CG-ed. Bees uses their own guns to shoot their Shindan and every time they shoot, they will shout something like, "Shindan loaded, Akabari!!" Well, luckily in this anime the line is short compared to FF Unlimited. I can't remember his name, but the main character kept shouting the same few lines every time he fired his gun. Hehe I am not really into that genre of anime.
I like Lag's character, but I would have love him if he's not a crybaby. Huhu I dun understand why Hiroyuki Asada sensei would make him such a big crybaby. It sometimes cute when he got all emotional over something worth getting emotional at. But if it's not, then it became rather annoying... -_-
And Niche is simply adorable and funny. hehehe I like her the best. And Gauche is super kakkoii~~
Huhu the series ended right after Lag met Gauche. All this time Lag had been searching for him, but Gauche had lost all his memories of Lag. What happened to him? It couldn't be because of the rumor that he had his heart eaten by a Gaichuu, for if it was the case, Gauche would be dead right?? Of because he used up all his heart to fight Gaichuu and suffered from the side effect? Or he encountered another Flicker? And why was Roda transformed into a human form??
Aah... I can't wait for a sequel~~~~~
Wyeee~~ just finished watching anime oofuri season 2 (Summer tournament). It was actually aired on 2010!! But I only found out this morning.. wuuu~~
Ahem.
And so I started downloading the series and watched it the whole day~~ hihi talk about himono onna @@. It happens to be my lazy day. Initially I planned to do some Raya shopping, but my sisters woke up late and I din feel like shopping anymore for it surely will be overcrowded.. sighh
Back to oofuri, in all there are 13 episodes for this season. Ahh.. I really love the boys and their games, even though I know nothing about baseball, thanks to oofuri I learnt a few things about it. Err but really, really few things ;) Of course I did some reading in the wiki to learn something about baseball, but I only read the most basic part :P Like there are 9 players in each team, there are four bases on the field, the team will score a run once they run around the bases and return to home, there are 9 innings to complete a game (this one of course I picked up from the anime), and the team with the most runs wins the game.
Ah.. suddenly I'm missing Slamdunk~~ When was the last time I read Slamdunk series? I can't even remember!! Yosh.. I'll bring the entire series the next time I go back to my hometown.
Again, back to Oofuri. This series started after the game with Tosei ended. Since they defeated the previous year's champion, Nishiura gained some attention and their opponent studied their data seriously, in order to advance in tournament.
Here comes spoiler..
The first few episodes showed their games with Sakitama High. Tajima was left with an injury after the match with Tosei. This led Momo-kan to re-arrange their positions. In this game Momo-kan was intentionally harsh to Hanai, since he always had his personal issues with Tajima, feeling inferior to the genius Tajima, he lost his own confidence and wavered.
Haha it was bitterly funny when he found his answer from Mihashi who everyday kept competing against other team members. How Mihashi practiced really hard to be the best pitcher, so as to secure him the spot of a pitcher, his spot on the mound. For Mihashi, being on the mound proved his very existence in the team. He truly believed, should Tajima try hard, he will be a better pitcher and will be positioned as regular pitcher. How dreadful the thought was for Mihashi. (Although he was the only one who thought that) Listening to Mihashi's struggle, it was clear to Hanai that whatever he felt towards Tajima, it's not a bad thing. Rivalry is a good thing, even if among the same team members. Gambare, Hanai-kun!!
Oh and it was really funny when Tajima saw Mihashi's expression after talking to Hanai. Tajima straight away confronted Hanai and accused him for bullying Mihashi. Kekeke how Mihashi stood up and denied it, and Tajima straight away like, "Eh what, so it's just a missunderstanding!" and it was settled just like that. ahahaha.. Tajima-kun really is a reliable friend (who acted more like Mihashi's older brother) .
Next, they played Sayama High.
Nishiura ended up losing to Sayama. In the first few innings, Sayama kept getting runs thanks to data gathered by their coach. They were able to predict Mihashi's pitches and kept getting runs. Mihashi however didn't lose his trust towards Abe. The team worked hard to catch up but when trying to catch the ball, Abe received a knee injury in 8th inning (I think). Tajima was then made the replacement catcher.
I was really moved when Abe so reluctant to draw from the game, for he had promised Mihashi that he will not get sick or injured for the next three years so as to catch Mihashi's pitches. For Mihashi truly believed that no one but Abe will be able to catch his pitches and to draw the best out of him. There was no word being exchanged between them, Abe only could grab Mihashi's wrist, really hard, his hand was trembling. Understanding that, Mihashi promised him he will get two more outs.
During pairing with Tajima, Mihashi learnt that all this while he'd been too depending on Abe, leaving all responsibility to Abe. For him, he trusted that Abe will lead him to every pitches and just throw without once shaking his head. During Abe's absence, he came to understand that there would be times that Abe would be wavering between two throws and would need to consult Mihashi on which one to throw.
All in all, though they lost, every one of them had grow and they were all fired up to grow even more stronger. Huu it's sad season 2 had ended, really enjoyed the series. I hope to see them soon in national!! <3
Huh at the age of 2*, (of course the exact number is a secret) i actually realized how true the quote "laughter is the best medicine" is.
I'm fasting today, and began my morning in foul mood, as i had some bickering with my sister at home.
The bickering continued in the office ( through email). And i went to shop for a bit, alone. So i din get engaged in friendly conversation all day - all my teammates are busy(except for me), no time for chat-time. Well at lunchtime i always chat with my lunch-mate(s). Or if i wasn't lunching out with anyone, i'll have my lunch at my workstation while reading manga. Of course, i will laugh quite a bit (sometimes too much)
But today, my head was feeling heavy and started to ache. I tot it's because i'm fasting. But then, when i read a funny fb status from a friend, and laughed aloud, my headache magically lifted off!! Isn't it a wonder??
So there u go, laugh, and your day will be brighter ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
I'm fasting today, and began my morning in foul mood, as i had some bickering with my sister at home.
The bickering continued in the office ( through email). And i went to shop for a bit, alone. So i din get engaged in friendly conversation all day - all my teammates are busy(except for me), no time for chat-time. Well at lunchtime i always chat with my lunch-mate(s). Or if i wasn't lunching out with anyone, i'll have my lunch at my workstation while reading manga. Of course, i will laugh quite a bit (sometimes too much)
But today, my head was feeling heavy and started to ache. I tot it's because i'm fasting. But then, when i read a funny fb status from a friend, and laughed aloud, my headache magically lifted off!! Isn't it a wonder??
So there u go, laugh, and your day will be brighter ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
Wuuu T^T
I can't sleep and just barely managed to stop crying..
Just finished reading this book, written by Ali Shaw. Huhu this book is truly magical. Uhh i still can't get over the sad ending.
The story evolved around Ida who was slowly turning into glass. When she was trying to look for a cure, she met Midas and they fell in love.
The ending was so painfully abrupt that i was left hanging with tears falling heavily until the last fullstop. Until the acknowledgement page. Until i shut close the book.
I knew i will get into trouble sleeping. As i keep remembering the last scene. Even while typing this entry my tears are not stopping.
Uh definitely will get puffy eyes tomorrow~
It's already this late and i must get to the office early tomorrow. Must try to get to sleep now. G'nite.
I can't sleep and just barely managed to stop crying..
Just finished reading this book, written by Ali Shaw. Huhu this book is truly magical. Uhh i still can't get over the sad ending.
The story evolved around Ida who was slowly turning into glass. When she was trying to look for a cure, she met Midas and they fell in love.
The ending was so painfully abrupt that i was left hanging with tears falling heavily until the last fullstop. Until the acknowledgement page. Until i shut close the book.
I knew i will get into trouble sleeping. As i keep remembering the last scene. Even while typing this entry my tears are not stopping.
Uh definitely will get puffy eyes tomorrow~
It's already this late and i must get to the office early tomorrow. Must try to get to sleep now. G'nite.
well, not literally ;)
I've finished reading The Last Empress by Anchee Min. this book is sequel to Empress Orchid. I read Empress Orchid a few years back, and I didn't know then that there is a sequel. By the time I know, it's either the book wasn't in store or I'm kind of short of cash to buy it. :P To cut the story short, I finally bought the book last Monday and spend my whole weekend reading it. (actually i'm in the middle of reading The Girl with Glass Feet, and it's getting to interesting part. but i had to put it down to give way to the last empress!!)
I've finished reading The Last Empress by Anchee Min. this book is sequel to Empress Orchid. I read Empress Orchid a few years back, and I didn't know then that there is a sequel. By the time I know, it's either the book wasn't in store or I'm kind of short of cash to buy it. :P To cut the story short, I finally bought the book last Monday and spend my whole weekend reading it. (actually i'm in the middle of reading The Girl with Glass Feet, and it's getting to interesting part. but i had to put it down to give way to the last empress!!)
yesterday morning i went to tasik titiwangsa with my best friend bart to spend the day reading. we brought some food and drink and had a peaceful day reading to our heart content!! it was a peaceful day :) and today i also spend the day at home reading!! and surfing the net in between, and of course some smurfing ;)
in between my reading i did some research on the empress on the net. well, basically i just read the wiki. empress cixi ( or tzu hsi or orchid is said her original name) was described as an evil leader of china who had thirst for power. many rumors circulating, such as she killed her own son to retain her power, and killed the first empress and so forth.
i'd like to write a short review of the book but it's quite late already. huuu it's monday already @@
huu one day i will visit Beijing (it was called Peking during that time) to take a tour to the Forbidden City - now is palace museum and also their Great Wall!! hopefully i can go there with my future husband :P
Hallamak... Tbe2 bgn pagi terdengar2 lagu Memories nyanyian Ryu (kot), OST Winter Sonata. Mesti sbb smlm aku tigt lagu tu masa bukak buku nk study (kunun) korea. Tgk perkataan "ajik" tigt lirik lagu tu. Aahhh reminiscencr sungguh. Nak carik blk lah lagu tu. Huhu da ilang tatau kat mn dah lagu tu.
Hihi tingat lak zaman mengaji dulu, siap bli cd pirate kat skudai parade, compilation ost winter sonata n drama2 lain yg seangkatan (which is da x igt)
Hoho yosh my coffee is here, am having breakfast. Ittadakimasu~~
Hihi tingat lak zaman mengaji dulu, siap bli cd pirate kat skudai parade, compilation ost winter sonata n drama2 lain yg seangkatan (which is da x igt)
Hoho yosh my coffee is here, am having breakfast. Ittadakimasu~~
Ohayo Minna-san..
Ohoho it's noon already, but I just woke up 15 minutes ago (when I started writing) so it's still morning for me :P
Happy Maulidur Rasul~~
But that's not what I'm writing about in this entry. As promised in previous entry, I'm writing about this new manga series, Bakuman. Actually it's not new, but I just recently started to read it. When it first published online, I read the first chapter but dunno why I didn't follow it since. Maybe that time I was engrossed with other manga, anime or drama.
OK, after seeing first volume of Bakuman in store, (not sure how many volumes are already published) I decided to start reading it. As expected from Hikago's and Death Note's mangaka, Bakuman is indeed interesting. Oh I know now, the first time I read the first chapter, I stopped because it takes time reading it, and I was busy with other then-interesting series. Bakuman requires a lot of reading, because it has many dialoque, quite similar with Death Note. Explanations that are required in order to understand the story.
It's interesting to understand the world of mangakas. And the boys' determinations are really something. Hmm I guess this is the same feeling of watching "The Social Network" movie. I love Facebook very much, so I love watching a movie on how Facebook was first developed and stories behind it. Same goes with Bakuman, I love manga very much so of course this interests me as much!! (I'm downloading the anime episodes now. Oh no.. I'm so really busy!! I still got tones of One Piece anime episodes to watch, Bakuman manga to read.. hmm which one first???)
I guess I will stop write here. Bakuman manga is getting interesting, but reading is really time consuming, so maybe I'll watch the anime first. But reading manga is the best way to understand all the details. arghhhh doushiyo???
Maa... ja naa!! ;)
Hoho i'm posting this entry from Kuro-nii. Yaya, i know, y shud i do that?? Typing using this keypad is such a pain. But as mentioned in the title, i'm testing this newly installed app. Who knows one day i need to post something on the go rite ;)
Ok that's all, have a great day ahead
( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
Ok that's all, have a great day ahead
( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
Damn.. this app doesn't come with edit function. or maybe a full version has it? not sure.. but i dun intend to buy this app :P (had to edit this using laptop..)
hey there..
many things has been going on in my life. hehe that's a good thing tho ;)
i'm currently taking korean classes - preparation for my Korea trip 10 months from now. ohohoho 안녕하세요!!! ngee
it's been 2 weeks and i'm still struggling to read hangul. and a lot of vocab to memorize. but it's fun. hehe. google translator has been my best buddy and i will read raw noblesse manhwa if i ever want to practice reading in korea. uhh tho i dun have that much of free time..
and i've been courting someone. hihi. but this one i still have not much to say so i'll just leave it. ;)
i have a new interest in DIY bags, so i'm nurturing this interest as a new hobby, and hopefully advance in this professionally. it started when i was browsing around looking for a laptop sleeve and i came across this blog selling handmade ones. she's selling many kinds of handmade bags and it interests me. so i browsed and came across some tutorials to start creating DIY bags and last night, i finally put it into action to "test my power" and tried to hand-sew a zippered pouch. well, it turned out just ok, and i had confirmed that i can do this. it will not be an easy path - i never dream of being a seamstress (i seriously can't remember when was the last time i touch a needle). well, i still dunno if i ever will be one, but i do hope i will, at least a part time seamstress who can produce good quality of handmade bags ;)
today, while browsing this and that, i came across this anime review blog (a new one) and this blogger has a review on honey and clover anime. god, i couldn't agree less. he (or maybe she, i dunno..) rated it 5/10. woaa that's so unjust!! i know that's his personal rating, but i dun think that's a good review. i think this genre is just not his (or her) thing. like for me, i dun really like mecha anime - like gundam, and such. but since it's not my thing, i won't watch it or dare to rate it. because i will not be able to give a good review.
sigh.. i love honey and clover so much it upsets me. i know, i'm not being reasonable. people has different views. but honey and clover is (for me and many many other) the best anime in its genre. i have to re-watch it if i want to give a full review, for the last time i watched it was a few years back.
but i can still remember many scenes in it. the most vivid scene is when mayama was piggy-backing ayumi when she was drunk, and she confessed to him, "Mayama, suki". kyaa~~~ i felt it. how mayama had been dreading this very thing - the moment ayumi will tell him how she felt about him, how he should respond to her, it happened, and the way mayama replied "Yeah" over and over, i found the moment was so beautiful yet painful.. for both of them.
hagu is not annoying.. she's awkwardly cute. she's awkward because of how she grew up, having no close friends, only her talents. people can't understand her. the way she grew when she started to make friends with the other 4, is a beautiful thing. the way she sees thing are different from others. i guess that's the way geniuses are..
all in all, honey and clover is a beautiful anime with beautiful characters and story. huh? i end up writing a short review after all.. hehe
i realized that this blog of mine has no entries for anime at all!! and i dare calling myself an average otaku??? huh.. azra, you're getting waaayyy too lazy!! (actually i had friendster's blog loooong time ago and i used to post entries about a few animes i've been crazy about)
as of now, my top anime list are: nodame cantabile, one piece, honey and clover, fullmetal alchemist, oofuri (ookiku furikabutte), k-on!, k-on!! azumanga daioh, hale nochi guu,fruits basket, hikago (hikaru no go), nana, kaicho wa maid sama and the list goes on..
as for manga, the top list are: bleach, one piece, slamdunk, dragonball, yuyu hakusho, beelzebub, oresama teacher, crayon shin chan, and many others.
hm.. i guess that's all for today. i will try my best to post entry to review about more stuff - novels i read, songs i like, anime, manga, j-dorama, k-stuff, and whatsoever. this is for the sake to improve my writing skill ;)
okey, ja mata nee ^^
hey there, salam..
today is already third of January. and yet here i am, wayyy left out in posting an entry for the occasion. is it because i'm lacking the enthusiasm for celebrating the new year?? nawww... it's because i'm too preoccupied with my new hunny~~ ngeheee his name is kuro-nii. huhu three weeks ago i finally lost kuro-tan.. huhu due to my clumsiness, i lost him.. and only 3 days ago i bought a new phone. hehe i've been in love with this phone ever since kuro-tan showed symptom that's he's going to fail me.. and i named him kuro-nii (black no 2). hehe this new black is way sleekier than kuro-tan. hehe the down side is i can't set my fav song as its ringtone. maybe there's a way in doing that. i already searched on the net and found one, but haven't try it yet.
haha enough about the phone-talk. this entry supposed to be about new year right? i ought to be talking about resolutions and such..
well, last working day last year, hehe i meant to say on 30th December 2010, 3 days ago, i was listening to the radio, IKIM channel. hehe even I listen to ikim at times, mostly on the way back from work because usually i go back around maghrib time. and i was saying, there is a slot for a tazkirah, a topic on new year celebration of course. this ustaz was saying, before we go off to listing our new year resolution, we first must do a postmortem of the year. go through our resolutions of the current year, defining whether we had achieved our goal(s) of the year, and if we failed, to find out what are the reasons for the failure(s). he said we should find out the reasons, but not excuses. excuses won't bring us anywhere. and after finding out the reasons, to think of solutions to work it out. and to execute. in order to work this out, we must stop BANGAU-ing.
what the heck is that, you ask?
oh see, there is this old folk song we Malays sing in our childhood, it goes like this:
bangau oh bangau, kenapa engkau kurus?
macam mana aku tak kurus, ikan tidak timbul.
ikan oh ikan, kenapa engkau tak timbul?
macam mana aku nak timbul, rumput panjang sangat.
rumput oh rumput, kenapa engkau panjang sangat?
macam mana aku tak panjang, lembu tak makan aku.
on and on it goes until,
ular oh ular, kenapa kau nak makan katak?
macam mana aku tak makan, memang makanan aku.
the song goes on and on since each character in the song gave excuses for whatever situation they were in. until the snake put a stop to it - it says it's hunting for the frog because it (the frog) is what it(the snake) eats..
the point is, stop making excuses every time you're stuck in some deep sh*t. try to move forward. if a great wall is stopping you, move around it, somehow look for a way to pass it through. seek help, whatever, just don't sit there like a lump of meat, defeated, composing heaps of excuses should anyone would ask. you could always turn around, go back to your starting point, perhaps think about things you've done wrong, ways to get around it, and start over. no one is rushing you. it's not just about the destination, but the journey itself is darn important. it is life.
talk about rushing things out, two weeks ago i had an emotional breakdown.
if you read my new year entry last year, you would probably remember how i was in blues thinking that i'm getting another year older and yet i am still alone. well, it's not happening that way this year. because i am no longer alone? nawww... wrong answer.
i met a guy, and he's wayyyy younger than me. and he expressed his interest in me. i was puzzled. dear God, is this the one you sent to me? there was no way to find out, except trying to get to know him. knowing that he's sooo much younger than me. then i accepted, OK, there is no way in hell He sent this boy for me. and i softly pushed him away.
then, a friend introduced me to her hubby's best friend. he is a nice guy. we got along quite well. then he expressed his love for me with 3 roses. in 1 week. dear God, i wasn't flattered, i was getting scared!! this guy is serious and i was still struggling to get to know him. i feel nothing for him. then one day (week 2) it struck me. i don't dislike this man, but i can't like him. all i've been doing is look at his good points and make myself believe he is a good man. but do i like him? no.. it gave me an emotional breakdown. i cried myself out, thinking, oh God, is this really for me? do i have to accept anyone who comes into my life who i can't reject? just because i am getting old and perhaps i won't be getting any other chances?? it was such a great blow for me, it was so unfair. the thought "I have to" really made me damn depressed. is it so impossible for me to meet someone i like and likes me back? really? because i'm old??
then i went to see my best friend bart. and as always, her words put me at ease. why should i force myself? why am i doing things i don't like? don't i believe in Him? i have right to make my own choices. so what if i choose wrong? i'm a human after all, of course i make mistakes. why should i be afraid of making mistakes? have faith in Him. maybe He has other agenda for me. i don't feel IT with him, so maybe he's not the one. why should i feel rushed? why should i feel like my age is chasing me? age is not stoppable. it will come as it pleases. just let it be. i will try to go with my own pace. not feeling rushed. enjoy the journey, enjoy the life.
i said this before, in my previous entry, there are many blank spaces in my life. but my journey is still long (unless He said otherwise). who knows what i will find along the way? i look forward to continuing my journey this year. welcome, 2011!! :)
Salam all,
Two months had gone by since I last wrote. I've been feeling like writing for a while now, but been busy with other stuff, none is important enough tho ;)
Well, today's topic is about my camping trip early this month - Nov 5th until 7th, 2010 and the said Gunung Chemerong is located in Terengganu. It was my first time ever climbing a mountain!! I couldn't even believe myself when I told my best friend, Bart that I would like to join her. hihi..
The climb was DREADFUL, and HELLISH. God, I felt so stupid, keep asking my then-stupid-self why the hell am I doing this again? Why would I torture myself, to throw myself into the deep jungle, carrying the super heavy backpack on my delicate ( :P ) back?? I should be home lazying around, facebooking, watching tv and whatnot. Was I MENTAL??
Haha that was what exactly on my mind after it got dark. Who wouldn't thought like that? Ngee..
We started tracking at 9am. In the beginning, the trekking was so much fun, we chat a bit, started getting to know other members (out of 43 joiners, I only know 7 of them from previous activities), getting breathless, taking 5-es now and then, snapping photos of the people (myself mostly :P) and the nature. It was brilliant!! And after a few hours, we reached our first stop - Chemerong Waterfall. SUBHANALLAH, the waterfall is AMAZING~~
Then we continued our journey, and the trek got tougher, it started to rain. I chose to stay behind with the slowest team, since I doubted I can follow other's fast pace. Huhu I'm a novice, remember? So as the slowest team, we WERE slow.. huhu it was getting dark.. and we kept going. Finally the night fell, and we kept going on slower and slower. That was when all the cursing started. Roughly around 8-9pm, we reached bonsai park. This place has a REALLY amazing view. And we reached there in the middle of the night?? BIG DAMN!! Huhu so rugi.. I am so jealous when I look at others' pictures posing in the bonsai park. uhuuu.. We reached Gunung Berembun summit finally at I-don't-know-what-time-it-was-I-was-damn-exhausted. I was so damn pissed of, the exhaustion was really unbearable. It was so stupid to reach the summit in the middle of the night, I didn't even snap a pic there for memorial :(
After resting for quite sometime, we started to move our a**es to the campsite, we headed to Lansir Waterfall. Huh I tell you.. it was BEYOND hellish. The trek was terrible, the after-rain created puddles of mud, the track was super steep, it was sooo dark, total nightmare. But the team were really helpful, they helped me a lot, all the time.
It was 11pm when we finally reached our campsite. I was beyond wasted. I dragged myself to join Bart to wash up, solat and eat. And finally.. sleep~~ Oh, during the late dinner, gogo - Fendi asked me, how was it? And I was like huuu I don't want to do this ever again.. hahaha they all laughed. Apparently, most hikers say that when they're tired, but soon, they'll be asking for more. Now I totally get it ;)
I started to get that feeling when I was enjoying the morning view from Lansir. It was brilliant.. SUBHANALLAH.. Boy I was glad to be there.
That afternoon we went to have a swim and play around at the waterfall. It was a true bliss... the water is so cold, so pure. Ahh I really had a great time there with the team..
That evening, after napping a bit, I went to lie on the big rocks - star gazing. Shiawase~~ so peaceful. I haven't done this in years!! After a while, a girl who shared the tent together with us, came to join me - Radi. We chatted about this and that, until dinner call came ;)
The next morning, we packed our stuff, clear the campsite and started trekking down. The trekking went rather smoothly, well, it was quite tough, the track is suuuper steep, but we managed to get to base in shorter time than scheduled.
We freshened up, excitedly chatting with each other, strangers two days ago are now good buddies, feasting at the canteen, more photo-shooting, more laughter. Nobody seemed to care that the bus was running late. When it was finally there, we happily, tho tiredly loaded ourselves and our backpacks into the bus and returned to KL.
It was an amazing experience, I'll definitely do that again ;)
Minna-san, goukigenyo~~
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hv u noticed lately i only write (if i ever write, that is..) abt korean stuff most of the time. korean drama, korean songs, movies, bands, jang geun suk, i hv interest in korean food, hanbok, everything korean. well, i've been a fan for as long as i can remember, but before this, it's always been nihongo. i really really luv anything about japanese - dorama, jpop, anime, manga, movie, a bit of their culture, kimono, bunga sakura, novel pasal geisha, zaman edo, etc..
sigh.. i was swept away by the big hallyu..
and today, ahem slow sikit.. when i was having a break in the office, i was searching for baking king kim takgu ost, when i came across BLACKOUT - the brilliant green's newly released album. aren't i lucky??? yay~~ in an instant i hv their new songs!!
the first track - blackout was ok the first time i listened. it got better track after track. the third track really nice - i'm sick of this place. i was entranced once again by tomoka's sweet voice. it got way better with talk to me, then boom!! blue daisy, i was blown away. i fell in love!! then i was pretty occupied with work i was unable to savor each and every song. until now. hohoho now i hv all the time in the world.
i did some research and found in wiki that blackout was scheduled for release on September 15, 2010. err 2 days ago?? really?? talk about lucky~~ (btw, now going underground is playing in the background, it's superb!!)
actually i was never a big fan of buriguri (i found that this is what fans call 'em. same like l`arc~en~ciel, their short name is laruku, etc..) i was a fan alright, i love their songs, and the vocalist's voice. but never to the extent to find out about the members, buying their albums & singles and whatnot. but i know a few of their songs back in uni time - forever to me, sono speed de, there will be love there, hello another way, maybe we could go back to then. but that's all about it. jpop songs resources are scarce back then, and i was a poor student.. what i hv was what being passed around by friends. but really, i love their music.
so when today i came across their music again, i was, and AM THRILLED. well, i am now NOT a poor student, but one wonders why i still choose downloading path?? ngeee gomenn.. (anyway i just can't breathe is playing - and another superb song!!)
i read about them a bit here and there, downloading a few more songs recommended by a fellow big fan. now only i know, tsumetai hana really is an awesome song!! i fell in love in an instant!! as i go on listening to their old songs, i came to understand a point by another fellow big fan, their music sounds a bit different from back then - before their guitarist quit. well, i'm no music expert, so i can't be that sure tho.. ohh.. like yesterday is brilliant!!
yoshh.. now that i'd listened to each and every track, i can end this entry already. all in all, the songs are marvelous!!
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Rest lagik. kali nih bersama FT Island. kyaa kawaii~~
| Missing U |
Jeolddae keureolriga eobtdako neon keureolriga eobtdako
Ibyeoliran eobtdako nan mideotseonunde
Eodibuteo shijakingeonji ahlsu eobtnun peojulcheorum
Nae keuriumui shijakeun dah neoyeotdanungeol
I'm Missing U Missing U
Jukdorok keuriun saram
Neomu bogo shipgo keuriweodo hal suh eobtnun mal
I'm Missing U Missing U
Keuteorok saranghan saram
Dashi naeigaero dorawajugetni
I'm Missing U
Jeoldae byeonhalrika eobtdako neon keureolliga eobtdako
Nal saranghandan keu mareul dah mideoseotnunde
Keurae shijaki itsseotdamyun kkuti jeonghaejin yeonghwacheorum
Saranggwa ibyeolui sunseondo dah jeonghaejingeoni
I'm Missing U Missing U
Jukdorok keuriun saram
Neomu bogo shipgo keuriweido halsu eobtnun mal
I'm Missing U Missing U
Keuteorok saranghan saram
Dashi naeigero dorawajugetni
Naesaranga saranga na eobin mot sandahaetjana
Seulpumeul nae apeumeul niga deo apahaetjana
Nae pyeongsaengeul ilsaengeul neomaneul saranghaetnunde
Eoddeohkae na eoddeokae neol itjeulsuitgetni
Seol saranghae saranghae Oh I love U I'm Missing U
Dashi naeigeiro dorawajugetni
I'm Missing U
Eodibuteo shijakingeonji ahlsu eobtnun peojulcheorum
Nae keuriumui shijakeun dah neoyeotdanungeol
I'm Missing U Missing U
Jukdorok keuriun saram
Neomu bogo shipgo keuriweodo hal suh eobtnun mal
I'm Missing U Missing U
Keuteorok saranghan saram
Dashi naeigaero dorawajugetni
I'm Missing U
Jeoldae byeonhalrika eobtdako neon keureolliga eobtdako
Nal saranghandan keu mareul dah mideoseotnunde
Keurae shijaki itsseotdamyun kkuti jeonghaejin yeonghwacheorum
Saranggwa ibyeolui sunseondo dah jeonghaejingeoni
I'm Missing U Missing U
Jukdorok keuriun saram
Neomu bogo shipgo keuriweido halsu eobtnun mal
I'm Missing U Missing U
Keuteorok saranghan saram
Dashi naeigero dorawajugetni
Naesaranga saranga na eobin mot sandahaetjana
Seulpumeul nae apeumeul niga deo apahaetjana
Nae pyeongsaengeul ilsaengeul neomaneul saranghaetnunde
Eoddeohkae na eoddeokae neol itjeulsuitgetni
Seol saranghae saranghae Oh I love U I'm Missing U
Dashi naeigeiro dorawajugetni
I'm Missing U
| Translation Missing U | |
That such a thing couldn’t possibly be, that you wouldn’t do such a thing
That there would be no goodbyes, it's what I believed
I wonder where it all began, like a puzzle that can't be done
That the start of my yearning, was all due to you
I’m missing you, missing you, person I miss to death
The words I cannot say though I miss you so much and long for you
I’m missing you, missing you,
person I loved to that extent
Won’t you return to me again, I’m missing you
That it couldn’t possibly change, that you wouldn’t do such a thing
I believed in all the words saying you loved me
Yes, if there is a beginning just like a movie with a predestined ending...
the order of our love and goodbyes, were those fated too?
I’m missing you, missing you, person I miss to death
The words I cannot say though I miss you so much and long for you
I’m missing you, missing you, person I loved to that extent
Won’t you return to me again?
My dear love, dear love,
you said you couldn’t live without me
Sadness, my pain... you pained even more…
My life, my whole life,
you were all I loved
How, how will I ever find a way to forget you
I love you, love you
Oh I love you, I’m missing you
Won’t you return to me again? I’m missing you
That there would be no goodbyes, it's what I believed
I wonder where it all began, like a puzzle that can't be done
That the start of my yearning, was all due to you
I’m missing you, missing you, person I miss to death
The words I cannot say though I miss you so much and long for you
I’m missing you, missing you,
person I loved to that extent
Won’t you return to me again, I’m missing you
That it couldn’t possibly change, that you wouldn’t do such a thing
I believed in all the words saying you loved me
Yes, if there is a beginning just like a movie with a predestined ending...
the order of our love and goodbyes, were those fated too?
I’m missing you, missing you, person I miss to death
The words I cannot say though I miss you so much and long for you
I’m missing you, missing you, person I loved to that extent
Won’t you return to me again?
My dear love, dear love,
you said you couldn’t live without me
Sadness, my pain... you pained even more…
My life, my whole life,
you were all I loved
How, how will I ever find a way to forget you
I love you, love you
Oh I love you, I’m missing you
Won’t you return to me again? I’m missing you
| I Hope | |||||
[HK] Haruga jinago, handari jinado Neo-ege yeonragi, ojireul anhasseo Nunmuli heulleo, gaseumi apa Aniya jamsippunya Anilgeoya, anilgeoya Anilgeoya, nareul deollaejima Niga tteonan bin jarriman keojyeoga **[HK] Neoreul dasi bwado neon, neon nae sarang Subaekbeon bwado nan, nan ne sarang Haneuri maejeojun neon nae sarang Niga jamsi gireul irheun geot bbuniya Dasi tae-eonado neoman barae Dasi saranghaedo neoman barae Dolaolgeoya, dolaolgeoya Niga eomneun naneun eobseunikka [SH] Nal saranghanda haenogo dodaeche eodiro Ddeonangeoya nareul beorigo Jabeun nae du sonkkajido Ori yakkseoggajido Na beorigo ggaebeorigo eoddeoke ddeona [HK] Ggumilgeoya, ggumilgeoya, Ggumilgeoya, nareul sokiji ma Naman honja namgyeojinge seoreowo **[HK] Neoreul dasi bwado neon, neon nae sarang Subaekbeon bwado nan, nan ne sarang Haneuri maejeojun neon nae sarang Niga jamsi gireul irheun geot bbuniya Dasi taeeonado neoman barae Dasi saranghaedo neoman barae Dolaolgeoya, dolaolgeoya Niga eomneun naneun eobseunikka [HK] I modeunge agmongilgeora nan saenggakhaesseo A-jebal I ggumeseo ggaegiman barae [JJ] Oneuli jinago maeil ddo nun tteumyeon I modeunge hyeonsiri anin ggumigil barae OH~ Modeunge hyeosilboda deo miwohaetdeon ggumiyeotgil Naneun barae, neon barae ajikdo neoreul weonhae [HK] Dasi dolabwado neon, neon nae sarang Sucheonbeon bwado nan, nan ne sarang Haneuli heorakhan neon nae sarang Urin jamsi meoreojyeottdeon geot bbuniya [HK] Dareul yeojal bwado neoman barae Dareul saranghaedo neoman barae Dolaolgeoya, dolaolgeoya Naega eomneun neoneun eobseunikka [JJ & SH] Nan maeil bam gidohae nae haengbok anin bulhaengeul wihae Neon naega anin dareun sarang mothage Nan neo animyeon andwae nae simjangi neol malhae Naneun byeonham eobseo dasi tae-eonado neoman barae [HK] Dasi tae-eonado neoman barae Dasi saranghaedo neoman barae Dolaolgeoya, dolaolgeoya Niga eomneun naneun eobseunikka
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rest japs with Uncle Kracker. LURVE this song~~
You're better than the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip-side of my pillow (that's right)
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Let's me know that it's okay (yea, it's okay)
And the moments when my good times start to fade
You make me smile like a sun, Fall outta bed
Sing like a bird, Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along just like a flower pokin through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain
And just like that
You make me smile like a sun, Fall outta bed
Sing like a bird, Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
Don't know how I lived without you
'Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
You're better than the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip-side of my pillow (that's right)
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Let's me know that it's okay (yea, it's okay)
And the moments when my good times start to fade
You make me smile like a sun, Fall outta bed
Sing like a bird, Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along just like a flower pokin through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain
And just like that
You make me smile like a sun, Fall outta bed
Sing like a bird, Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
Don't know how I lived without you
'Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
You make me smile like a sun, Fall outta bed
Sing like a bird, Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh you make me smille
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh you make me smille
Sing like a bird, Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh you make me smille
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh you make me smille
** credit: http://www.azlyrics.com **
