yeah.. so it seems..

2012 is fast approaching. Haihhh I soon will be in the 3 series. Unfortunately, unlike BMW 3-series, it means bad news :P

Hihi even though I’m on this depressing topic, I’m not feeling all that depressed. Maybe the magic of being in the “3-series league”. It means “yeah, so what?” hehe I guess you can say being wiser. Or maybe just a simple i-don’t-give-a-damn attitude.

When I was approaching 20, and in early 20s, I was anxious. Of what would be lying ahead. Of what kind of future awaiting me. Then while living it, it totally passed me by. Before I knew it, I’m approaching the end of it. I am about to begin a new phase of life. Even though the current phase hasn’t changed much.

To sum up my life up till now, I haven’t accomplished much. I’m still a normal office worker, a salary-woman. I can provide quite well for myself and a bit for my family. I can go places for vacation (though for this purpose I am still not in the comfortable zone to go wherever and whenever I want). But because of my twisted priority and my ever-lacking discipline, I am still unable to buy myself a house. And I don’t have a good saving. And I don’t have a husband who I can claim back the money I spent on make-ups, shoes, dresses and such.. :P ahahahaha

Huh? All I’ve been writing about is MONEY?? ♬♬ It’s all about the money, money, MONEY~~ ♫♫

Haha yeah, so it seems.. my main target this coming new year is to save as much money as I can. Err.. how about finding a husband and going for vacations you ask? Tsk.. tsk... Hahaha of course these two are also listed in the target list, silly! Duhh.. LOL

As ever, my wants are never-ending, you see.. As a human being, this is NORMAL right? I want to live a comfortable life, I want to buy nice things, I want to go places, I want a nice husband and build a nice family. There are so many things that I want. But do I get to have all these? Of course not.. I am just being ambitious, that’s all. It’s not like I’m being greedy. I am truly blessed that I had been given so much. Alhamdulillah, ya Allah.. Syukur atas segala Rahmat dan nikmat yang Kau limpahkan padaku, ya Allah..

My years had been great.

But if I work harder, I can do better!!

So what do I want to achieve this incoming new year?

1. Save up money as stated in the newly re-constructed “Kira-kira 2012”

2. Get married (err like I said in previous years’ entries.. don’t u need to find the candidate first?? :P)

3. Lose weight (just for the sake of tradition LOL)

4. Vacations: bought air tickets to Tawau – will be going to Mabul island next year, insya Allah.. And also a plan to Beijing (will be depending on my friend’s availability. Not many people interested to travel to Beijing)

5. If (current_month > 9 && get_married == false) action = buy a house;

6. Hm….

Can’t think of other resolutions.. I still have about 3 weeks before the year end, so I’ll update this entry if I can think of anything else. Haha not that many things to be accomplished right? But, if you weight each resolution, hmm all points are really heavy and required great deals of effort and discipline. Yoshhh… gambaruze!!!!

hey there..

hey there..

Hye hye minna-san, gokigenyo~~

Semalam aku tgk Dalja’s Spring kat KBS. Mengisahkan citer pasal single lady yg da cecah usia 33 tahun. Musim bunga dia muncul di akhir umur dia 32. Tp aku btol2 respek Oh Dalja nih. Wpon dia pompuan jenis konservatif, tp dia ada byk good qualities. She has her own charms. Tho not showered with luck..

Ble aku compare life aku ngn life Dalja, aku rasa life aku skg terlalu dull – it’s like it’s winter time in my life. There’s nothing much going on in my life. No ups, no even downs!!! It’s just a long straight highway!! It is safe, but it can be damn boring. Lately I got more used to spending time alone at home. I don’t mind it at all. In fact, I find it fun – free and easy. Me time. I’m becoming more and more a true Himono Onna!! Yadaaa!!!!! (well, I certainly wrote this sentence in my previous entry. What to do, since I’m feeling the same thing again, I’m writing it again :P) . huhu but “me time” all the time can be really boring..

Sigh…

These few days I’m thinking about doing part time job. Maybe teach at any tuition center near my house. I dun really like being a teacher. But that’s the next best thing I can do, apart from doing programming. I dun have any other skill or knowledge. The biggest reason is to gain more money. Side reason is to fill up my empty spaces in life. I have too much time to spend (err and not that much money to spend). Every day coming back home, I have nothing much to do, just watching TV, browsing the net, reading novels. Well, it is fun and relaxing, but the empty spaces keep gaping there. I must do something about this. Dunno if I got a strong will to do this or not. But once upon a time, I did a part time job being a tuition teacher while waiting for my SPM result. I can try it again.

Huu remember my new year entry I talked about this new company I’m setting up with 2 friends? Well, it’s not happening yet. We’re working on it, but apparently we haven’t landed on any project yet. No project, no income.. sigh.. So while looking for a project to work on, I will try my luck in teaching.

Yosh.. Azra-chan gambaruzou~~ hwaiting!! p(^_^)q

Tgh2 wat keje neh, tbe2 terasa nk makan jeruk kelubi yg jual kat IZ Jeruk tuh. Pehhh mantapnya. Rasa ayak liur mcm nk nitik je skg neh. Ehee nmpknya time dinner break karang (aku on evening shift) langkahku akan panjang ke alamanda mencari jeruk ini. Dpt 1 bekas peno tuh walauehhh bliss~~

Pastu rasa nk google lak psl buah neh. Sbb budak team aku x kenal buah neh. Lam wiki info dia x byk sgt, gambo x included. Tp jumpa la.. Ble da tgk gambo dia lg laa tak tertahan2 keignan nk santap jeruk kelubi nih. Ohh masamnya~~ dapnye~~~ *drool..*

i still hv 10 minutes before balik time. huu this week is my evening shift week. so i get off work at 12 midnite. yea.. i hv it tough.. the work sometimes really tough, really boring. huu but i hv to endure it. this oct 28 is my first anniversary in A****o. come to think of it, this is the first time i stay this long in 1 place. hehe what to do.. i've been bonded. another year to go~~ azra, gambare!!!

td blk dr keje, as expected jalan jem cam biasa. jem yg x teruk sangat, still bleh jalan. maklumla.. opis lepas awal sempena ramadhan nih, sume org nk blk rumah awal, samada utk berbuka atau makan malam..

masa tuh lebeh kuang kul 5.40 (opis aku lepas kul 5, tp kena tgu adik aku, dia bleh blk jam 5.30..) hari masih cerah. ohh lama sudah aku x kua dr opis time cenggini. x biasa lak ngn matahari petang terik lagi memancar cahaya. dalam2 jam tuh mula laa berpk benda2 yg jarang aku nk pk.. aku bersyukur aku masih lagi hidup di saat ini. aku bleh merasa hangatnya sinar matahari yg menyinari pipi kananku. (ohh keretaku masih blom tinted smpi sekarang. so whatever the sun got to give me, i wholly accept it :P) and ohh the sky.. whatta a lovely day today is. the sky so blue.. so brilliant.. clouds everywhere. err cumulus clouds if i'm not mistaken..

sambil2 pelan2 kete gerak, sempat laa aku snap pix ngn camera henponku. hoho i really feel good today. i'm better!!

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Clev eland ,Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.It is the most-requested column I've ever written.
My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. [nami] totally true [/nami]
5. Pay off your credit cards every month. [nami] this one is crucial!! ;) [/nami]
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it. [nami] uff ignore this one pls.. [/nami]
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck. [nami] failed to do.. U_U [/nami]
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. [nami] i neva resist choco, is welcomed anytime anywhere :D [/nami]
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what theirjourney is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; Godnever blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one isup to you and no one else
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no foran answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don'tsave it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, willthis matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything. [nami] baik.. [/nami]
29. What other people think of you is none of your business. [nami] ya btolll [/nami]
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'dgrab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift." [nami] that's why it's called present..[/nami]

yo minna~~ gokigenyou.. (hehe mei-chan's style of greeting. not marimite mind you :P err mei-chan is from mei-chan no shitsuji. waaa kakkoii rihito-sama.. *love-love*)

at last aku da create blog kat blogspot nih.. ehe. seblom nih aku selalu update blog friendster and utk update sensitive posts, aku update kat blog lain. hehe privacy thingy. i guess later on this will be my official blog. theehee am planning to spend a LOT of time with this. yoshhh

well great thing about blogspot is it is a tool from google. well, what can i say, i looove google applications. hehe been using gdocs, gtalk, gmail to the fullest. haha i especially like gdocs. tho i might be outdated but no matter, i'm loving it. and u dun hv to worry ur post got lost because of bad connection, since google helps u to save every few seconds. well, when i'm posting sensitive posts, i usually type first in notepad and only after finished writing i copy and post it to my blog entry. pre-caution u can say.. because i would hate to write about something sensitive twice.. duhh

haha now it sounds like i'm promoting google when everybody already knows abt its lovable features.

hmm what makes me suddenly so rajin to create another blog when i already own 2? well, it's because i'm excited about this radio widget. i like listening to radio but way before, i gave up the idea of listening to online radio, since last time i tried (err 3 years ago??..) i hv to sign up and everything. so that's y i gave up that idea. better to listen to my own collection of mp3s. but today i start to listen to this radio widget from my friend's blog and hey, i dun hv to sign up. wahh so good. (haha am i an IT person or what. so shame.. haha) so here i go, with so much free time on hand, and a few things to say in my mind, here comes my first boring entry. kukuku

i guess that's all for the first entry. ja bye bye :3

p/s: oh dun be discouraged.. this won't be a japanese-wanna-be or anime blog. promise i'll label every entry. so be sure to expect a few varieties. hmm that reminds me of something i read in some forum. it's about a korean hating non-korean for using korean words so casually and widely without the care whether the word is correct or not. hm.. well what can i say.. hate all u want. bwahahaha i'll use whatever language however & whenever i want. stop me if u want. i'll decide to stop or not. hahaha tho i dun use korean words, it starts to get to me. i have the urge to use "aishh" when i got pissed off(actually been using it quite a few times). and "omo" when got a bit surprised. but haven't reach that level yet. i'm still japanese-addict. hahaha. uhh what a dragged p/s.. okay, so long~~